In like and love, and the teenagers in-between

"Lover"

You always think you can see
my heart behind my skin,
and you can touch it with your words
but i dont know where theyve been.

These things sound so rehearsed
and theyre ending just the same,
the vow of suffering together
or to drift and break away.

You tried to make me whole
but it was too much for a need,
to want you as my own,
to fulfill the act of greed.

It's true we're happier apart
than suffocating each other,
but our moods will always change
just like this Melbourne weather.

I wrote this about an hour ago and it is supposed to illustrate the scenario a friend of mine is trapped in. It's about teenage love. Personally, I never intended to find love in my teenage years, I'd feel like a lot of my years to experience love, sex and all its glory had been crammed into a semester at high school and I tried to avoid this feeling at all costs. But sometimes love can just find you out. If it's not a person that can sway your thoughts and dreams from a single gesture or word, then its the longing for a touch, a gesture or word from anybody. It's human to want affection and teenageism stresses these points with the wonderful touches of hormones and estrogen. We are old enough to crush and be crushed but too young to understand why it hurt so much.

Love is a hard topic to talk about, teenage love is just as hard. It is something we want, but everyone could postpone, yet postponing only leads to anxiety and before you can stop yourself from inventing the lust within your mind a moment passes with that person. And then you want another one. Love goes both ways. For me, I felt secure, wanted and never alone. Then I gave that in return. Which can mean that love is a continuous cycle of giving and gracefully accepting what you gave in return. That is the utmost basic mechanics of loving somebody. No matter how much I can talk about love, it will only be scratching the surface of what true love is. The only reason I can't write about true love yet is because, well, I don't think I've felt it.