I'm keeping something inside me, like a repressed feeling, a jar with overflowing emotions, because if I left it go I don't know whats going to happen. Today isn't one of my best days, I'm slightly distracted and frustrated.
I was going to say that I have a secret that I cant say. But its not a secret and I can say what it is. I just choose not to. It's a continuous event that slowly but surely breaks me down each time I have to witness it. And I only wish I'd know what to do but the the truth is, I don't. There is no correct way of approaching this situation.
This situation is blocking the truths and beauty of everything. It's blinding. Hate is such a strong word, theres no other word to follow hate, but this is something I literally hate. I want to tell someone, but I have fears of how I'm going to be perceived, what they are going to assume, and what friendship holds in the balance of it all. For some reasons, issues such as these are better told to complete strangers. Why? Because a stranger cant judge like a friend can. A stranger can only say thing based on what he knows, which wouldn't be much at all.
Any decision I make to approach this situation will be life changing. All but one. The one option is to ignore it. But I'm no Jesus. I can't make miracles. Eventually, I'll snap.
Edit: Started a...fourth or fifth online diary (these are short lived, trust me) so feel free to check it out! www.godsendtheory.blogspot.com. That's all from me, thanks!
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Well the way i see it that a friend is suppose to stick by you no matter what, well i guess you can a best friend is suppose to do that .. either way i always thought it was better to tell someone you know very well because the bond that you and the other shouldnt be broken by something you say. A friend shouldnt percieve you as anything other than what makes you entitled to be there friend who you are and what you have done to be worthy of being called a friend. Im no telling you to tell a friend/best friend its up to you its just my view on the friends part, i hope your ok and everything will be alright though.
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