Today has a been a tough day to get through. I've had such weird moods. The best way to put how I feel would be like this:
My heart is empty, like a wishing well. And all I'm doing is throwing coins attached by an invisible string of hope to the bottom...if there is a bottom. Maybe they fall through the other side. I'm not happy with myself and the negativities of everyday life are outnumbering the positive ones.
It feels so easy to give up, and I question why I'm pushing. I'm not quite sure what I'm looking forward to, there's not much to push for right now. And if there is, my cynicism is making me oblivious to it.
I guess for the hope of a new and better day comes to mind. But when is it going to come? And right now, do I even deserve a good day?
1 comment:
Everyone deserves a good day, even those who do the most cruel things. Some deserve a good day more then others and i believe your one of them. Keep pushing yourself, you are bound to reach the end of the negative lifestyle sooner or later and then you can move on and if something similar haunts you again you think to yourself how you pushed last time and everything was fine. Just think of the things that make you happy in life and picture how good it will be in the future, you dont want to give up now so keep pushing as you have been. Soon the positive days will outnumber the negative :D
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