When i sit here wondering about alot of things which have happened in the past 2 weeks, i find myself in a bind where i am stuck on what to write and how to write it when the words are jumbled in my head.
Ive been sitting on my chair, the one i write my blogs in, and nothing comes to mind, no matter how hard i try my thoughts erase as if they were the writing and and they are erasing themselves with an eraser. I cant stop to think about what i just thought of whether it was good or bad and i wait until i remember. And as i write this im thinking about what a waste of time this is because there is no relevance to anything.
Not had the best few days ... felt sick, major headaches, feeling down a bit. Worst day at school all year today i felt lifeless, as if my entire life force had been sucked right out of me and i had no emotion just one, confused.
Confused to why i would feel the way i do, confused to try and understand how i am the way i am, this is getting pretty depressing and its so unlike me. Have no idea what to say but im lost and i have been since the party where i made a complete dick of myself and have felt down since because ive been the laughing stock. I was only trying to have fun .. maybe im just not cut out for that sorta thing.
*Sigh* what can i do now? will i be ok tomorrow? is this whole thing going to blow over soon? i hope so because i feel like i am being eaten alive hence my "hole" starts to dig.
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i love reading posts where people can talk about a bare minimum and just make it drag on, but still keep me engaged, its a good skill!
okay, the BEST thing about high school is that todays news...is going to be yesterdays news and everyone will forget.
alcohol has that effect generally. where you just lose control of your body and before you know it, youve peed your pants. it wont be hard to forget exactly what you did that know, but dont forget the lesson. know your limits with alcohol. a party isnt thrown to drink alcohol, its thrown to celebrate. alcohol is an extra. maybe next time set a limit and keep it there.
everyone looked after you anyway, so you were lucky people didnt take advantage of you and make you do something really stupid haha
back on, drawing blanks. i always think of the best things to write about...and then i just forget as soon as i get onto the computer, it gets annoying...
Half of the time I don't have anything to write about and when I finally do, I can't find the words to express myself properly. And then I lok at everyone elses blogs and think of how stupid mine sounds in comparison and delete everything I have written. You would be suprised how many times I have done that now.
A gentle piece, with a soft reminder. I have "brain-waves" or those "just a thought..." moments near daily, sometimes its hard to dipict what comes next or what do i do from here.
Writers block is a common thing with people. Whether it be because there worried about what they write on "vitual paper"(internet) is taken the wrong way from people. Which differs completely to actual paper(eg diary), inner most deep thoughts, where only you see and hear what is being discussed.
Again, nice reminder of peoples thoughts.
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