I asked a friend what they were saying, I had already known about it but I wanted him to take it from the top and break it down to every little detail for me, I sat and listened while trying to tame my excitement. At first, it seemed like meditation, like something you say to get into a zone that belongs only to you. Then it sounded more like a language and less like gibberish. I felt like I didn't belong...after all, I would have been the only person in that room who did not posses this gift.
Of course, it's so easy to ask for it, but honestly, I was scared I wouldn't receive it. Also, I had received so many things in the past month from Jesus that I felt like I should just learn to accept and stop asking for more. Even though I wanted it so badly, I could see what I was already given.
Speaking in tongues is a gift. When you ask for this gift, it will gladly be given to you. I'm not sure if this is right or wrong. But I like my gifts when they come at magic moments. Like a birthday present. It's much more exciting to open your present on your birthday rather than before it. So until then, I'll be grateful with what I have and just sit patiently until I'm ready to receive something as powerful as this.
To conclude: I never realized how ignorant I really was. Somehow, for 17 years I managed to skip all of this, suddenly, I don't know life well at all and I'm taking baby steps to find where I truly am.
This just re-enforces a previous post:
"‘How silent it is!’ said the disciple.
‘Never say “how silent it is”,’ replied the teacher. ‘Say rather: “I cannot hear nature”."
NOTE: any questions regarding this leave it in the comment section and I'll get back to you.
1 comment:
i like my gifts at magic moments to .. but i see your point about not opening a present b4 ur actual bday because the anxiety in waiting and the excitement when you open it on a day where u feel deserving of those gifts such as your bday it makes it that much more meaningful.
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