Assignments

Motivation is hard to find in a teenage boy who only ever wants to sleep, eat or socialize with people he wants to socialize with. It's not that the teenage boy does not want to achieve or pave a path to a prosperous future, he just wants to savior the moments of being completely dependent and un-relied upon by his family. It is a supreme once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. I don't know if the actions I take are always the best. I don't know if living life the way I push myself to live it is 'right' either. There is no right way to life. We all have been thrown into different situations, we are each facing some sort of battle, we have each fought our own demons in our life.

Personally, I have found that the most hardest obstacle to overcome in my life, is myself. Anyone can tell me to do anything, but whether I do it is up to me. Anything that happens in life is up to the way I perceive it. Anything I am taught, I can choose to learn or disregard. Not everyone with do things that people tell them to do. Not everyone will see a tragedy or an epiphany when you do and people will refuse to learn about something they won't care about. We shape who we are. Sometimes I wonder if I am doing it right.

I wonder if I have spoken to the right people and made the right friends, spent my time effectively and been who I want to have been and not what I want others to see me as. I'm scared of the paths I've taken and the choices I've made. Were they right or wrong? Do they mean anything at all?

I think all of these things and then suddenly realize that I would never care about such things if I acted as myself, did things I wanted to do and learned as much as I possibly could. To wonder if you've made the right choice is pointless once it's been made. All you can really do is accept things, such as yourself, for who/ what they are.

And of course, one teenage boy right now at this moment is neglecting his assignment to write this down. To waste time, to find an excuse or just for the sake of writing something, he chose to write something down.